Its time....

Well I think I am going to do something today that I have not done in a LONG LONG time. I am going to... hide my scales. Well actually Ill get Ivan to hide them, seeing that if I hide them I will know where to find them when the urge sets in.

I have been working so hard to not stress, I am proud of my worksout over the past 5 weeks. I have been going strong and making it a part of my daily routine. However the down side is that I have been (according to the scale) gaining weight. Its so frustrating. In order for me to push past this, I NEED to give up my addiction... tomorrow??..

Day 1- Going Strong.

MIA

I have been absent lately. Probably some sub conscious thing because I have really been self reflecting. Over the past couple weeks I have really stepped up my workouts. Which I am proud of. Unfortunately I am not seeing the results on the scale. This has lead me to a cross roads. I can either stress, stress, stress about a number and have my whole life defined by it. Or I can make decisions that will make me feel good inside and push away my obsession with the scale .

I feel as though I need that "A-ha" moment. I need to own the victories I make each day ( getting up at 6am today to work out).. instead of spending my time exposing the mistakes.

I just had a birthday... and once again I promised myself that this was going to be "the year".. the year where I saw happiness in the form of a number on a scale. However if its not too late I would like to amend this promise. This year I want to find happiness within. I am so blessed with great friends, a wonderful family and a amazing husband. I really need to own the fact that life is good. I am going to get strong both mentally and physically. One step at a time.