Today I was thinking about inspiration. I am so lucky to have so many people in my life that I am constantly inspired by. I could go on and on about my friends and how they are the most fierce, strong, independent, smart, successful and motivated girls I know. They go for their dreams, they are so true to themselves that they often break away from social norms and create their own paths of happiness. Who needs self help books when I can look around me and be inspired by those closest.

Today I am especially proud of my husband. He did something that I know I would have a hard time with in his situation. He fought for something he KNEW he deserved. Ivan is the type of guy that aims to make people happy.. I know this was hard for him. Sometimes in life I know I am quick to make the statement "oh well.. that's life I guess"... and possibly miss out on chances to better my life! Now this is not to say it will necessarily work in his favor but at the end of the day he knows that he didn't stand back and let an opportunity go to waste. Its all about getting out there and reaching and grabbing at opportunities that are passing me by everyday.

Fallin in love with myself... it's time

Today I want to fall in love with myself all over again. I want to examine my life and where my choices have taken me. I want to sit back.. breathe and smile. This is a good life.

I have gone weeks (feels like years) without weighing myself. I have no idea where I am at.. but what I can say is that I am on week 7 of 6 day a week workouts. I have not given up. I continue to go for it every day.. even if my pants are still feeling a tad too tight. This is something I need to own.

A good friend said these words " You are worth loving".. it got me thinking. I am WORTH it.. I am going to love myself... maybe not right away but I am going to take myself on dates, talk about my strengths, dream about my future and fall in love all over again.

Its time....

Well I think I am going to do something today that I have not done in a LONG LONG time. I am going to... hide my scales. Well actually Ill get Ivan to hide them, seeing that if I hide them I will know where to find them when the urge sets in.

I have been working so hard to not stress, I am proud of my worksout over the past 5 weeks. I have been going strong and making it a part of my daily routine. However the down side is that I have been (according to the scale) gaining weight. Its so frustrating. In order for me to push past this, I NEED to give up my addiction... tomorrow??..

Day 1- Going Strong.

MIA

I have been absent lately. Probably some sub conscious thing because I have really been self reflecting. Over the past couple weeks I have really stepped up my workouts. Which I am proud of. Unfortunately I am not seeing the results on the scale. This has lead me to a cross roads. I can either stress, stress, stress about a number and have my whole life defined by it. Or I can make decisions that will make me feel good inside and push away my obsession with the scale .

I feel as though I need that "A-ha" moment. I need to own the victories I make each day ( getting up at 6am today to work out).. instead of spending my time exposing the mistakes.

I just had a birthday... and once again I promised myself that this was going to be "the year".. the year where I saw happiness in the form of a number on a scale. However if its not too late I would like to amend this promise. This year I want to find happiness within. I am so blessed with great friends, a wonderful family and a amazing husband. I really need to own the fact that life is good. I am going to get strong both mentally and physically. One step at a time.

Mini Eggs in three....

Tomorrow is my Friday. Very excited to be going home to visit my parents with my Mr. and Puppy. It is supposed to be gorgeous all weekend! I am talking 17-19 degrees. Whoop Whoooop.

I weigh in tomorrow.. and I am hoping to have something.. I know deep down it wont be alot.. but at the same time it wasn't the GREATEST weeks for me eating and working out wise.

I am reading every ones blags and what I have come to realize is that I need to step up my fitness. I really need to push myself to the next level. I walk every day with the puppy.. but Its not enough right now.

So.. Easter weekend ahead. I FINALLY get to have some chocolate.. more importantly some MINI EGGS.. This was a difficult Lent this year. Those mini eggs are going to be so so so good. I have no doubt I will be enjoying some this weekend.. but I have to ensure I get some AP..and track track track.

Have a WONDERFUL day everyone!

Good Morning Sunshine

Today is Saturday. I love love love Saturdays. The whole days is yours. I am up early today enjoying a coffee.. but thinking how cold it is outside. Definitely going to be hard to motivate myself to go out there and walk the puppy. Luckily for me though he will remind me.

Today is going to be a great day. I will stay OP. I wont go over my points. There is no need to do so. We had a good night out last night.

Here goes a beautiful day!.